after Angel Nafis, after Terrance Hayes, after Jeanann Verlee
Loner is a good person.
Loner is quiet. Loner is an only child. Loner keeps things to himself.
Loner writes a lot. Loner puts his thoughts into poems. Loner recites his poems as strangers walk by.
Loner pretends he doesn’t notice. Loner wishes they stayed to listen. Loner hopes they liked what was heard.
Loner keeps things to himself.
Loner has friends. Loner has more friends than he thinks. Loner sends his friends poems.
Loner’s friends still invite him to parties. Loner is invited to bars. Loner goes to say hello.
Loner doesn’t know all the faces. Loner stares at all the eyes. Loner stares at every stare.
Loner has more friends than he thinks.
Loner tries to make conversation. Loner yanks his vocal chords. Loner smiles as he listens.
Loner thinks of words to say. Loner thinks the words are boring. Loner thinks he is boring.
Loner watches the mouths that move. Loner waits for a pause. Loner fumbles under his whisper.
Loner tries to make conversation.
Loner sits to soothe his mind. Loner says nothing’s wrong. Loner doesn’t like to lie.
You’re not worth knowing.
Everyone knows your mistakes.
You’re a bad person.
Loner’s head starts to spin. Loner starts walking away. Loner doesn’t say goodbye.
Loner doesn’t like to lie.
Loner runs down the street. Loner runs into the night. Loner runs.
They’ll never call you again.
You’ve really done it this time.
She was right about you.
Loner stumbles to the ground. Loner throws the vibrating phone. Loner yells at himself.
Loner tries to steady his hands.
Loner feels only his thoughts.
You’re such an asshole.
You never called Desiree back.
You told Andrea she was just like everyone else.
You let Ashley wait for you.
You kissed Chantal without feeling anything.
You crushed Ann’s heart when you slept with Zach.
Katelyn was right about you.
You didn’t go to Ms. Mello’s funeral
after she treated you like a grandson.
You hardly tell your mother you love her
when she’s someone who needs to hear it most.
Your father just lost a brother
and you’re out at a bar?
You’re a horrible son.
All you’ll be is alone.
Loner says I’m a good person.
Loner tries to believe he is.
Loner doesn't like to lie.